missing mom delt into the snuff hollywood-watergate picture

four odd things :,to day ,on moms' birthday (my missing dead moms' birthday)
journal entry;
1.zapped (tortured ,so much
that i cant type!)

so i'm missing letters completely ,when i try ,to type,and, i don't ,or can't sepparate words ,at all.....!!!!!!!

2.my emails' password was ,also confiscated,on the email address i use exclusively to communicate with scientists ,and/or cia presently .

3.my $40.00custom made baseball hat ,that was embroidered missing mom 617.918.7386. hostile benefactors
thexslavesinger4themob@yahoo.com
was stolen and the wrong phone number(617-917-7386) put on it (replaced!!)plus the head ,inside band's filthy!....

4. jon w.,new diane confidant pal ,and new adjoining my room roomie ;
had my wallet!
diane rooney is the same :looney ,as hell; paranoid ;nutcase; out of it;hostile; gonzo; loo loo ;(and i think called, aka subdiane,) and "diana ,to".... me she says.

you dont wanna know WHAT,' SUBDIANE', DOES...sabotage is one thing ;using filthy stuff (biomatter) she claims her top orders her to do...nutso ;flipped out; gonzo-gal;
get it,yet?!
finally :
i got some looser xyy-male ,again (short,for a tall gonk)guy ,following me (dianes' client ,or boyfriend) who's making masterbation gestures:finger himself ;like a girl gestures me ,following me ,on the mbta ,today along ,with nutso ;fruity ,diane looney- rooney...(sepparately),about 5:30 ,today.
*i don't consider myself, "indigent". i consider myself activiely ripped, off!....
i'm chased ,into living ,in this sleezy place ,by their active violent actions ;malicious salient false charges against me ;their active robbery of me and everyone with me (armed-robbery ) and, murder(more, than one....fiance mom girlfriends hostages...) ,not counting :lethal - threats we all had to endure;plus their active bold azzzz- stalking;permanant flase slander,on me and all, of their victims ;constant terrorism ;deviant covert ;organized harrassment, and slick blackmail scams still astive to date,on the living....
i was NEVER indigent a day ,or second ,in my entire life,till they made me live this way!
i recall captain looser frank pisan (insane br.inlaw),claiming he'd kill everyone ,if he was investigated ,and ,if dad or they did'nt kill any scandle
he was cot in ....
like: the pisani police promotion exams
(,and,i'm wearing ,THAT hat in its place too now!)
dad and mom were so serious about frank being deadly nuts
i also recall at the same time
frank TELLING dad
to make me a 'ward of the state' and drag me outta' premed-,and,college ,at boston university.
i said well dad
you dont brag about ,cathy(the other nutso cop in the family), but i see much better in hind site
when i see their murderous rampages now ,
that its too late ....
and i should have predicted
what was going on !
and what was really going on @sutton place swampscott ,ma.,and lodge rd
- my place dad had to argue with ted,(looser homicidal brother), about,
till he made papers disappear
and believe me


i cant sing a thing !
,in this environment .
i cant even think...
in fact
i havent thot for so long i ,forgot what it is to be able to think ;create ,and ,do something ,for real (your best)
,in your life ,now...
i could never do a thing in this place/ environment.
i dont know what liitle
people do contribute to the world- really do in this caca,
or
,if the little they do manage to do in this caca
really even makes a difference in the world
at all!...
it would take more people coming from this caca to make a substantial contribution, to the world, AT ALL.
daily journal to date on my moms birthday dec second ,another not replacable person,in my life...none of this should have ever happened
TO HER!!!!!!!!!,OR ANYONE AROUND ME AT ALL...
AND I JUST WOKE UP FROM 2 NITEMARES IN A PANIC TODAY ON MOMS BIRTHDAY
WE WERE ALL AROUND THE XMAS TREE AND EVERYONE HAD A MASK ON AND WOULDNT TELL ME WHERE MY GIRLFRIEND OR MOM WAS WOULDNT LET US SEE OR SPEAK TO EACH OTHER AND I SAW SINISTER MALE BROTHERS AND COPS LOOKING AT ME SAYING YOUR SCARING EVERYONE SO DONT BE SCARED,AND I AWOKE IN A SWET; HEARTPOUNDING PANIC ,AFTER
ZAPPED 24 HRS OF NO SLEEP,AND TORTURE
YOU SHOULD ALL FIND OUT WHAT NUTCASES DO IN SO-CALLED "ZAPPING"....
IT MORE INTERESTING THAN WHAT THE FBI IS DOING ABOUT ANYTHING ;ZAPED IS SOMETHING I'D NEVER KNOW ABOUT ,IF I WASNT IN THE HOBO SLIME; CHASED;ABANDONED ,AND,SUBJECTED TO THE SLEEZELY LOWLIFE OR ROTTEN SNUFARTISITS COPS...
BUT, NO CONSOLATION
ALL THE VICtiMS I SAW KILLED
WERE ,ALSO ZAPPED
AND COULD'NT SAY OR DO ANYTHING
STREET SHITT,OR AT LEAST:
I KNOW THEY WERE ZAPPED A LOT MORE
AND SAID A LOT LESS
THAN I DO........THEY'RE DEAD,
BY SNUFf
WHETHER ANYONE LIKES TO HEAR IT OR NOT....
i believed in mercy
and giving the benefit of the doubt
to the lethal detriment of my own
very close
loved-ones.
"compassion" now ,in me.... is'nt a thing,to be ,too proud ,of....anymore.